<< Nyekk >> Last day

It was a kinda sad, cheerless day today. It was the last day at work for us at The Hungarian Airlines main office complex. We felt we've got fired, and in a way, we've got fired. The work will continue at the airport, but it just won't be the same. We became quite attached to the place, and it feels weird we never ever come to solve the user problems here again.



The place wasn't always this messy, but paperwork grows on you after some time :D This was usually my desk and workstation.



There Is a support related xkcd comic printed on the locker, and a "we're not kidding!" sign >:D



And this is our little surprise for whoever will come to work tomorrow to replace us. I hope they will get the joke ;P



Bye bye lil' office... T_T

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<< Nyekk >> J-cult day

First of all, sorry about the mass of postage i have been doing lately, i seem to capitalize this blog for myself,but that's really not my intention :)

But since i got this iphone, posting to the blog while on the go became a more natural feeling. So excuse me anyway ^^;;;

So today we visited this thing called J-Cult day with Mizuchan (in romaji, because my japanese inpit just stopped working. Grrr) It was held by hungarian schools teaching japanese language, for the centenary anniversary of the japanese-hungarin diplomacy repicking their connection. (which was - as we heard - never actually dropped)

We saw many performances, like dragon dance, aikido and kendo show, and our friend, Hikaru also participated in a dance! She is member of a dance club which mixes traditional asian movements with modern asian music. They performed 3 times, I pretty much enjoyed it.


And which was - for me - the most interesting part of the event, they held seminars. The subject were how to improve teaching japanese, difference in eastern and western etiquette, hungarian-japanese diplomatic relations, and the school system differences. I liked them all, but the best was how hungarian horses fit into japanese history :D It was a really inteteresting find.


All in all we had a good time, I'm waiting for the next part of this event chain organized for this centenary occasion ;)

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<< Nyekk >> Press conference

I got asked to help out in the IT territory of a press conference held by Hungarian Airlines. It's not particularly interesting conference,but it's held in a very nice place in the heart of the city, a little cafe, on a lake :)






The weather is also very nice,the sun is at full brightness (not the best for the projector, but oh well) I got a cappucino, and hopefully will get some breakfast, too ;P











Update: i got breakfast, looks nice, ne? ;)



Itadakimasu ^^

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{{ mizuki }} Re: << Nyekk >> Restart

Dear Nyekk,

You said, no one will read what you wrote, why didn't you use crypto-blog?

I think, the only thing you need, is to focus on one thing, that you like and can grap onto it. I know one thing like that: Japanese. When you do this, you will get power from it for other things. If you let yourself and your thought wander for too long, and let the depression spread, of course you will get more depressed. But if you grab that one thing you like, learning this language we both love, it will give you the power for your other goals. Like... always eat while you are learning Japanese. When you can't/donwanna sleep at night, learn Japanese. When you have free time, work on your Japanese related thesis, and if it's a fail at the start, don't give up! While jogging, listen to exam listening files, then your mind can't go wander again. etc

If you keep yourself occupied, not only at work, it will do some good.

your best friend,
mizuki

tipp: climb up to a hill and shout out those things that bothers you.
PS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHFDa9efCQU

<< Nyekk >> Restart

First I have to warn you,it will be a long post,and maybe it isn't useful for anyone else but me.Those of you reading this blog (yes,those few) may have already seen post like this from me,about changes I wanted to make in my life. The fact is, I did not changed much of my life since them. Because of that,I got more and more fed up with myself,until this point. My life mostly reduced to work, and then going home, logging onto the net, and waiting for someone to talk to me. After a few months, It became a routine, the kind of you can't break free easily. Yesterday I had a lot of time thinking about my life, do I really need this? And based on this, I have decided to renovate my life, because this is not the only problem I have with it. I need to seriously patch up my personality problems.

The first thing I adressed is physical condition. I started doing regular workout at home during the summer,but maybe for not eating enough to support it, they weren't really effective. Nowdays I realized it's not really muscles that I want. Ofcourse it would be good to look like someone moviestar, but if not, then it's not something I would die for, nevet cared about looks anyways, as long as I don't look shabby. I would rather have stamina, as I get tired just running for yhe bus, panting for minutes afterwards, which is pathetic I think at my age. And starting Thai Chi perfectly fitted into this plan,it's something that gives you stamina. But I wanted a little more, something I could do every day. The problem is after I get home from work, I'm too tired to do anything. Lately I have problems with sleeping (more on that later), so I came up with the idea: I will do some sports before work, as I get up early anyway. So today I woke up at the usual five o'clock in the morning, I got up, got dressed,grabbed my music,and went jogging. I ran around the local streets, not much, only ten minutes. But that's enough for now. I always had problems getting out of bed, now this solves it. After this little round, and a shower, I was fully awake, and it actually felt good.

Moving on, the next thing is also physical, it's about food. After I started working, I began to eat irregularly, having lunch now and then. And I'm eathing a lot of unhealthy food also. I want to be healthier, so starting from today I will make my own sandwiches and food for work. It's also much better tasting :)

The next thing is the only thing I love and earlier I felt that I was good at it. It's Japanese. Lately it became neglected, not that I didn't have time for it at the evenings. I just didn't do it, stating to myself I'm not in the mood now. Now that the exam is so close,and I'm got to the point where i'm strugling with tests, I should seeieously change that. I have to allocate at least 1 hour a day studying.

Than there is the my thesis, to stay on the studying grounds, I'm not really did anything with it for almost a year. But I need to finish college this semester, as it's more and more becomes a burden, and I don't feel I am fitting in anymore. When I go to lesson, it feels like I'm a guest,an outsider.

I already told you about the problems with sleeping, it's not really that I cannot sleep, I can, but I often dream. And dreams are the source of most of my sleeping problems. When I was younger, I loved my dreams, because they were always about something I longed for, and I liked having fantasies about what my life will be in the future. This nature of my dreams hadn't changed at all, only me. Now these dreams tell me about a life I will never ever have, and though it feels good while dreaming it, waking up into reality easily throws me to depression. I am yet to solve this problem, as I really not having much control over my dreams. Until then, waking up at night and staring hour at the ceiling remains.

And it just trails over to the next thing, depression. For me, it's a very scary thing, as I can't control it either, and it really messes up my daily life. Actually I have the worst type, with rapid mood changes. The worst thing about it, is that I don't want to feel sad and down, but I just do. And the more I think about it, the more I slide deeper into depression. And when it strikes, I just lie around for hours having no motivation to do anything. And after some hour I feel pathetic about it which makes me even more depressed. The thing is, now it comes more and more often, now I don't like being left alone, because when i'm with others, i don't have time to think. But when i'm alone, my mind becomes cloudy, and I can't really occupy it with anything else. It helps when I talk with someone, but I don't have many contacts to talk to, and they are quickly get irritated about my depressed state, so i'm left alone again. I thought about getting professional treatment, as depression is genetically inherited, and not without precedent in my family. My fathers brother has committed suicide at the age of 24, and my sister is presently treated with maniac depression. Looming at my present state, i got that bad gene alright. I would really like to get did of this, I was always a cheerful person, and it kills me that i have to endure this.

Some months ago i believed that I have to move to a different place to have a fresh start, to change my life. Lately i realized it's just an excuse, like when you wait for the clock to show round time to get out of bed in the morning. Because it's doesn't imatter where I live, but how I live is more important. So i will wait for the time when it's finally possible for me to get my own appartment. It became a little lower priority over all the other things.

I don't think anyone will read all this, but I just felt I need to finally write these out. I hope that it always reminds me where I must be heading.

Sorry about taking up so much space for this nonsense.

Nyekk


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<< Nyekk >> Hacktivity 2009

Heey!

Now we are attending the Hacktivity 2009 conference, we had a little break so I thought about posting about the event in general. As the name suggests it's about security, especially IT security.




It's not about hacking actually ^^ They hold seminars about windows security , network security,and so on. We have got a little bag of advertisement stuff and little おみやげs like screen wiping clothe. The bag even have had a condom with "The security hole" written on it. They are that much conerned about our "security" :D




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<< Nyekk >> iPhone

Hey everyone!

I just came here to brag a little about my new iPhone I just got a few days ago :P It's a long and not really interesting story that how I came about wanting one, the roots of the cause are stretching way back to the summer camp.
Anyways, I got one cheap,so it's not without problems,but so far I'm lovin' it ( thank you,mcdonalds)

I just found a cool blogging application for it,while I'm waiting for an office 2007 uninstallation to complete,at work ^^




Hopefully the photo I inserted appears,too :)

Now back to work!
Nyekk

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