Hm....
- Paint the bedroom blue, put up brick tiles on the living room wall, behind where the TV will be, paint at least one wall lime green :P
- get a fluffy cat
- Go to Scotland with Mom
- Go to Japan
- keep my friends
- stay fun to be around
I think that's all :)
Pheebs
December 31, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} Revisiting new year's resolutions (2013)
Hi guys,
- move out, move out, move out. I feel that I need to get this over with in order to grow up, to start my adult life, to feel what it's like to take care of yourself, to feel the weight of money, to learn to cook etc etc. I need to fulfill this so much, that it bugs me when I sleep, when I'm awake.
The small ray of light that surfaced a few weeks ago might help me do it maybe in the 3Q2013... if it does not, I don't know how I'll cope with that. It's not that I don't like living at home... who wouldn't. It's just.. it's like I'm a pokemon that wants to evolve, but doesn't have enough space to do it.
Passed. I moved out on the 5th of August, to my lovely, geeky, quiet flat. I feel the weight of money, because ever since I did it, i am constantly facing a negative sum on my bank account :D I think January will fix that. Now I wonder what kind of pokemon I was...
- driver's licence. I'm halfway through guys, I'm nearly there. If only I wasn't so afraid that I destroy all humanity with the car I'm driving..
Getting this licence was never about actually driving for me. I kept having these nightmares when I sit in a car and want to escape or go somewhere, but I either can't start it, or start it but go backwards. And I was almost never able to steer right. I guess it's a metaphor for my life at this time. Although, the stupid little brainless me thought that maybe if I learn how to drive it wouldn't happen again (never realized it meant that I'm not able to go forward with my life...), it never occured to me that bringing my nightmare to real life isn't such a good idea. So yep.. every time I'm out in the practice field (not in traffic at this point, thank god!), it's a living nightmare. Thanks past Me...
Failed.. And I think I'm going to fail it for the rest of my life. It's just not for me. I'm a good driver in games, but don't have the guts to drive in real life. I think that's just something I'll have to live with. It will make the list of 'Things Pheebs can't do' longer.
- continue forming, helping the taiko band I play in. Our name became Nikko, as in sunlight in Japanese ( 日光 nikkou, we haven't decided on the writing yet.. but it might get a ' below the o to mark the u). Nikko's members are basically the players who started around February/March 2012 at Taiko Hungary. That formation split up in November and started anew.
Passed. Our name is Nikko, we play, most of the time for free. We changed course just recently and currently work on a cover for Lorde's Royals. Yesterday we went out to the city centre, were everything is still in Christmas decoration. It was beautiful. We were shooting for 2-3 hours with a professional guy, because we'll have a videoclip for the cover. We hope to get a little fame out of this :) I'll post a link for it once done.
- doing a taiko flashmob. We plan to do a flashmob (they have dance flashmobs, look it up in youtube. It means that the participants gather at one point of the city to perform something, but they appear one by one, giving the whole experience a kind of impromptu feeling, although I think it's well organized) with Nikko. The date is not planned yet, all we know is that we need good weather to do it :)
Passed. We did a flashmob, with the help of a coworker. It was fun, but it didn't help us as much as we expected it would. Watch it here.
- get a caisa / hang drum. It's so awesome I can't put it into words. And expensive unfortunately. So I think I'll fail this :D nevermind
Failed for now. Too expensive indeed :D
- get a PC, play Elder Scrolls Online!!
Passed / 2. Got a PC, ESO is not out yet :D
- persuade Nyekk and Padi to do the same :D hey, I need nakamas to succeed in this cruel world filled with monsters :DD
Failed. I don't think theycan be persuaded when ESO comes out either :D
- get on the Japanese Learning train again. We neglected this hobby of ours in these last 1-2 years. I want to get back to it again.
Passed. We started anew mid-September I think. Sometimes we have to cancel on classes due to work, but it is still fun. I missed it so much, and it feels so good to be back and do it with my best friend :) Thanks Nyekk!!
- survive at work.
Well.... it's true that I went to Toronto, and I can thank it all to work... but it has been a bit hard lately. I felt the kind of stress you feel during exams season at school, and my heart was not ready for this :D In any way, I'm doing my best in there, hope it does not go un-awarded.
Oh, oh!! and I want to find my way back to irc. I love irc!
Passed. And I'm exercising as well :D proof:
Nyekk kindly broke my combo of posts, so here comes the usual revisiting of new year's resolutions from last year:
- move out, move out, move out. I feel that I need to get this over with in order to grow up, to start my adult life, to feel what it's like to take care of yourself, to feel the weight of money, to learn to cook etc etc. I need to fulfill this so much, that it bugs me when I sleep, when I'm awake.
The small ray of light that surfaced a few weeks ago might help me do it maybe in the 3Q2013... if it does not, I don't know how I'll cope with that. It's not that I don't like living at home... who wouldn't. It's just.. it's like I'm a pokemon that wants to evolve, but doesn't have enough space to do it.
Passed. I moved out on the 5th of August, to my lovely, geeky, quiet flat. I feel the weight of money, because ever since I did it, i am constantly facing a negative sum on my bank account :D I think January will fix that. Now I wonder what kind of pokemon I was...
- driver's licence. I'm halfway through guys, I'm nearly there. If only I wasn't so afraid that I destroy all humanity with the car I'm driving..
Getting this licence was never about actually driving for me. I kept having these nightmares when I sit in a car and want to escape or go somewhere, but I either can't start it, or start it but go backwards. And I was almost never able to steer right. I guess it's a metaphor for my life at this time. Although, the stupid little brainless me thought that maybe if I learn how to drive it wouldn't happen again (never realized it meant that I'm not able to go forward with my life...), it never occured to me that bringing my nightmare to real life isn't such a good idea. So yep.. every time I'm out in the practice field (not in traffic at this point, thank god!), it's a living nightmare. Thanks past Me...
Failed.. And I think I'm going to fail it for the rest of my life. It's just not for me. I'm a good driver in games, but don't have the guts to drive in real life. I think that's just something I'll have to live with. It will make the list of 'Things Pheebs can't do' longer.
- continue forming, helping the taiko band I play in. Our name became Nikko, as in sunlight in Japanese ( 日光 nikkou, we haven't decided on the writing yet.. but it might get a ' below the o to mark the u). Nikko's members are basically the players who started around February/March 2012 at Taiko Hungary. That formation split up in November and started anew.
Passed. Our name is Nikko, we play, most of the time for free. We changed course just recently and currently work on a cover for Lorde's Royals. Yesterday we went out to the city centre, were everything is still in Christmas decoration. It was beautiful. We were shooting for 2-3 hours with a professional guy, because we'll have a videoclip for the cover. We hope to get a little fame out of this :) I'll post a link for it once done.
- doing a taiko flashmob. We plan to do a flashmob (they have dance flashmobs, look it up in youtube. It means that the participants gather at one point of the city to perform something, but they appear one by one, giving the whole experience a kind of impromptu feeling, although I think it's well organized) with Nikko. The date is not planned yet, all we know is that we need good weather to do it :)
Passed. We did a flashmob, with the help of a coworker. It was fun, but it didn't help us as much as we expected it would. Watch it here.
- get a caisa / hang drum. It's so awesome I can't put it into words. And expensive unfortunately. So I think I'll fail this :D nevermind
Failed for now. Too expensive indeed :D
- get a PC, play Elder Scrolls Online!!
Passed / 2. Got a PC, ESO is not out yet :D
- persuade Nyekk and Padi to do the same :D hey, I need nakamas to succeed in this cruel world filled with monsters :DD
Failed. I don't think theycan be persuaded when ESO comes out either :D
- get on the Japanese Learning train again. We neglected this hobby of ours in these last 1-2 years. I want to get back to it again.
Passed. We started anew mid-September I think. Sometimes we have to cancel on classes due to work, but it is still fun. I missed it so much, and it feels so good to be back and do it with my best friend :) Thanks Nyekk!!
- survive at work.
Well.... it's true that I went to Toronto, and I can thank it all to work... but it has been a bit hard lately. I felt the kind of stress you feel during exams season at school, and my heart was not ready for this :D In any way, I'm doing my best in there, hope it does not go un-awarded.
Oh, oh!! and I want to find my way back to irc. I love irc!
Passed. And I'm exercising as well :D proof:
11:09:03 Inoue3: "* Pheebs|training has quit (Remote host closed the connection)"
11:09:03 Inoue3: "* Pheebs|training (~pheebs@Rizon-6925E40C.herminatelekom.hu) has joined #ashiroom"
11:09:06 Inoue3: "Inoue3: お帰りなさいませ、お娘さま！"
11:09:09 Inoue3: "rururan: Pheebs's daily login excersise"
11:09:12 Inoue3: "Nyekk: :DD"
11:09:14 Inoue3: "Nyekk: ja hogy szalkasodjon a loginja"
11:09:17 Inoue3: "rururan: :DDD"
11:09:19 Inoue3: "rururan: keep those joins in shape"
New resolutions to follow later,
Pheebs
December 30, 2013
December 26, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} Bored, so here, character card for 2013
Character card for 2013
Mostly for my future reference
Your real name: Petra
Age: 26
Height: 167cm
Natural hair colour: light brown
Eye colour: grey
Skin color: fair
Glasses/contacts?: glasses, but just when my eyes are tired
Piercings: none
Tattoos: none
Braces: nope
Mannerisms: green clothing
Other distinctive markings: redhead
FAVOURITE
Colour: light green
Band: The Corrs
Video game: The Longest Journey
Movie: ALWAYSー三丁目の夕日 trilogy
Book: Philip Pullman - The amber spyglass
Food: chicken ramen
Game on a *cell phone*: check for mails when bored
CD: Ingrid Michaelson - Be OK
Flower: technically not a flower, but aloe vera
Scent: vanilla
Animal: dragon :3
Comic book: Yotsuba to
Cereal: Chocopops
Website: Apartment Therapy
Cartoon: Dexter's Lab
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: yes, the piano and taiko drums
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: don't own a TV, I usually watch a selected few tv shows
Like to sing?: only when I'm alone
Have a job?: yup
Have a cell phone?: it's 2013, even homeless people own one
Like to play sports?: a few, when competition can be put aside
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
Have a crush on someone?: no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: pff..
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: I have 1 monitor :D
Have any special talents/skills?: can make the sound of crickets, good at mario kart
Exercise daily?: I wish
Like school?: I like my language school
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: never tried
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: ouch
Speak any other languages?: English is not my native language, and I speak a little Japanese too
Go a day without food?: my record is 5 (cleansing)
Remember your dreams: most of the time
Read music, not just tabs?: yes
Roll your tongue?: which way?
Eat a whole pizza?: if I get enough time
HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery?: nah :(
Snuck out of the house?: never had the reason to
Lied to get out of trouble?: no
Had a computer crash?: i work in IT...
Gotten lost in your city?: happens from time to time
Seen a shooting star?: I don't recall
Been to any other countries?: Ireland, Scotland, England, Croatia, Austria, Canada
Had a serious surgery?: my brain has been removed during finals
Stolen something important to someone else?: no
Solved a rubiks cube?: used to be able to solve it under 2-3 minutes
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: god no..
Cried over a girl?: I have, but not in the implied way.
Cried over a boy?: yes
Kissed a random stranger?: no
Hugged a random stranger?: no
Been in a fist fight?: not yet
Been arrested?: haha, cute. no
Done drugs?: aspirin, mostly
Had alcohol?: I was forced to a couple of times, but usually avoid it
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: replace milk with tea
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: :D yes, at work
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: no
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: yes
Swore at your parents?: no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: no
Been to a casino?: no
Ran over an animal and killed it?: no
Broken a bone?: no
Gotten stitches?: no, although 2 of my scars wouldn't be there if I did.
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: :D no
Made homemade muffins?: YES! It's something I'm experimenting with nowadays. My boys claim they like it. (My boys meaning my 2 friends, whom I love like family)
Bitten someone?: no, what am I?
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: not interested
Burped in someone’s face?: amusing.. no
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: this morning
Cried: during the last Pixar movie
Went to the bathroom: I don't know, before I started watching the Lord of the rings... 4 hours ago???
Saw a movie in a theatre: last month. It was Catching Fire (Hunger Games 2)
Read a book: yesterday (Robert Jordan - Lord of Chaos - Wheel of Time 6)
Had a snow day: 2 weeks ago maybe
Had a party: does boardgame day count? If so, last week.
Went to a doctor: phew, dunno
Tripped in front of someone: last week, I think
Went to the grocery store: also last week (it's Xmas break..)
Got sick: last week, tiny little cold
Got cursed: dunno
Called someone: called someone what?
DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: fruit
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: off
TV/movie: tv shows
Body spray/lotion: spray
Cash/cheque: card
Pillows/blankets: what? both
Headache/stomach ache: hm.. neither.. come on
Paint/charcoal: charcoal
Chinese food/Mexican food: chinese all the way
Summer/winter: winter
Snow/rain: rain
Fog/misty: fog
Rock/rap: paper
Meat/vegetarian: meat
Chocolate/vanilla: vanilla
Sprinkles/icing: icing
Cake/pie: cake
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: ocean
Cookies/muffins: :O muffins filled with cookies
Wallet/pocket: wallet
Window/door: window
Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: n/a
Pink/purple: bleh, neither
Cat/dog: cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve: long
Pants/shorts: pants
Winter break/spring break: who broke them?
Spring/autumn: spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear
Moon/mars: moon, never liked sailor Mars much
Questions/Answers: questions
War/Peace: peace
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Do you believe in love?: I do
What's the most important kind of love for you?: unconditional
Have you ever been in love?: in a way
Been close to love?: n/a
If you have, with who?: n/a
Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?: yes
Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: no
Are you in a relationship?: no
If so, for how long?: n/a
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: maybe
What is your idea of the best date?: geeking out
What was your first kiss like?: not how I imagined
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 18
Do you think love is worth nothing?: why would I think that?
Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex: guys are better friends, and I value friendship over everything
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: why not ask this question before all the other?
Have you ever been dumped?: no
Have you ever dumped someone?: yes :(
I...
Am: a nerd/geek
Want: an iPhone
Need: to sleep more
Love: my friends
Hate: my food allergies
Feel: good about where I am
Did: run a lot around for this year's perfect Xmas presents
Miss: my university days, for I had much fun with my friends
Am annoyed by: an upgrade at work
Would rather: be a Canadian/Scottish/Irish/Japanese than Hungarian
Am tired of: seeing my negative bank account
Will always: try to be fun to be around
MISCELLANEOUS
What is your favourite genre of music?: acoustic, indie, new age
What time is it now?: 0:47 (oh my..)
How much money do you have right now?: less than an average salary
Are you hungry right now?: not really
What are you doing right now?: finished watching Lord of the Rings (Fellowship of the ring), chatting on IRC and keeping an eye on the Steam Holiday Sales
Do you like parades?: no, too loud
Do you like the moon?: I'm a rabbit, I love da MOON
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: sleep and dream of the Moon
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: flying or teleporting
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Funny?: yes
Cool?: my hands are always cool, like that of a frog's
Pretty?: pretty funny
Sarcastic?: sometimes
Lazy?: when it comes to exercising
Hyper?: nah
Friendly?: most of the time
Evil?: live?
Unforgettable?: I have people who forgot about me, so apparently not
Smart?: how is smartness measured?
Strong?: getting stronger
Talented?: not particularly, no
Dorky?: nah
WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: expectations
Lonely: tree
Pen: art
Flower: bloom
Window: microsoft
Psycho: logy
Brain freeze: ice cream
Strange: Fringe
Sassy: Lassie
Suffering: Japanese horror movies
Art: one person and an instrument
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?: no way
Run away?: with the Corrs
Curse at a teacher?: not when she was around
Not take a shower for a week?: :S no
Ask someone out?: yea, like "hey, let's get lunch from the chinese"
Unscrew your cellphone too see what's inside?: yup
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: no, I don't care if they don't like me for who I am anymore
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: 1 month was the top until now. It was great. would do it again
Go scuba diving?: hm.. maybe
Write a book?: yes, definitely
Assemble a computer?: did
Become a rock star?: nah, I'm not hard enough
Have a long-distance relationship?: no
Marry someone you don't know?: marriage roulette, or what?
LAST QUESTIONS ( FINALLY ) - ARRGHHHH...
What kind of computer do you have?: Macbook Air and a Lenovo
What grade/level of studies are you in? (if applicable): finished with university degree
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: I prefer stuffing them in my mouth. Not the people, the popcorn
How many posters do you have in your room?: none, but plan to put a few (like 7) up pretty soon.
Ok, so that's all folks. I did this for fun, because the last time I filled this in was aaaaages ago.
Pheebs
Mostly for my future reference
Your real name: Petra
Age: 26
Height: 167cm
Natural hair colour: light brown
Eye colour: grey
Skin color: fair
Glasses/contacts?: glasses, but just when my eyes are tired
Piercings: none
Tattoos: none
Braces: nope
Mannerisms: green clothing
Other distinctive markings: redhead
FAVOURITE
Colour: light green
Band: The Corrs
Video game: The Longest Journey
Movie: ALWAYSー三丁目の夕日 trilogy
Book: Philip Pullman - The amber spyglass
Food: chicken ramen
Game on a *cell phone*: check for mails when bored
CD: Ingrid Michaelson - Be OK
Flower: technically not a flower, but aloe vera
Scent: vanilla
Animal: dragon :3
Comic book: Yotsuba to
Cereal: Chocopops
Website: Apartment Therapy
Cartoon: Dexter's Lab
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: yes, the piano and taiko drums
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: don't own a TV, I usually watch a selected few tv shows
Like to sing?: only when I'm alone
Have a job?: yup
Have a cell phone?: it's 2013, even homeless people own one
Like to play sports?: a few, when competition can be put aside
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
Have a crush on someone?: no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: pff..
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: I have 1 monitor :D
Have any special talents/skills?: can make the sound of crickets, good at mario kart
Exercise daily?: I wish
Like school?: I like my language school
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: never tried
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: ouch
Speak any other languages?: English is not my native language, and I speak a little Japanese too
Go a day without food?: my record is 5 (cleansing)
Remember your dreams: most of the time
Read music, not just tabs?: yes
Roll your tongue?: which way?
Eat a whole pizza?: if I get enough time
HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery?: nah :(
Snuck out of the house?: never had the reason to
Lied to get out of trouble?: no
Had a computer crash?: i work in IT...
Gotten lost in your city?: happens from time to time
Seen a shooting star?: I don't recall
Been to any other countries?: Ireland, Scotland, England, Croatia, Austria, Canada
Had a serious surgery?: my brain has been removed during finals
Stolen something important to someone else?: no
Solved a rubiks cube?: used to be able to solve it under 2-3 minutes
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: god no..
Cried over a girl?: I have, but not in the implied way.
Cried over a boy?: yes
Kissed a random stranger?: no
Hugged a random stranger?: no
Been in a fist fight?: not yet
Been arrested?: haha, cute. no
Done drugs?: aspirin, mostly
Had alcohol?: I was forced to a couple of times, but usually avoid it
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: replace milk with tea
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: :D yes, at work
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: no
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: yes
Swore at your parents?: no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: no
Been to a casino?: no
Ran over an animal and killed it?: no
Broken a bone?: no
Gotten stitches?: no, although 2 of my scars wouldn't be there if I did.
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: :D no
Made homemade muffins?: YES! It's something I'm experimenting with nowadays. My boys claim they like it. (My boys meaning my 2 friends, whom I love like family)
Bitten someone?: no, what am I?
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: not interested
Burped in someone’s face?: amusing.. no
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: this morning
Cried: during the last Pixar movie
Went to the bathroom: I don't know, before I started watching the Lord of the rings... 4 hours ago???
Saw a movie in a theatre: last month. It was Catching Fire (Hunger Games 2)
Read a book: yesterday (Robert Jordan - Lord of Chaos - Wheel of Time 6)
Had a snow day: 2 weeks ago maybe
Had a party: does boardgame day count? If so, last week.
Went to a doctor: phew, dunno
Tripped in front of someone: last week, I think
Went to the grocery store: also last week (it's Xmas break..)
Got sick: last week, tiny little cold
Got cursed: dunno
Called someone: called someone what?
DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: fruit
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: off
TV/movie: tv shows
Body spray/lotion: spray
Cash/cheque: card
Pillows/blankets: what? both
Headache/stomach ache: hm.. neither.. come on
Paint/charcoal: charcoal
Chinese food/Mexican food: chinese all the way
Summer/winter: winter
Snow/rain: rain
Fog/misty: fog
Rock/rap: paper
Meat/vegetarian: meat
Chocolate/vanilla: vanilla
Sprinkles/icing: icing
Cake/pie: cake
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: ocean
Cookies/muffins: :O muffins filled with cookies
Wallet/pocket: wallet
Window/door: window
Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: n/a
Pink/purple: bleh, neither
Cat/dog: cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve: long
Pants/shorts: pants
Winter break/spring break: who broke them?
Spring/autumn: spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear
Moon/mars: moon, never liked sailor Mars much
Questions/Answers: questions
War/Peace: peace
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Do you believe in love?: I do
What's the most important kind of love for you?: unconditional
Have you ever been in love?: in a way
Been close to love?: n/a
If you have, with who?: n/a
Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?: yes
Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: no
Are you in a relationship?: no
If so, for how long?: n/a
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: maybe
What is your idea of the best date?: geeking out
What was your first kiss like?: not how I imagined
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 18
Do you think love is worth nothing?: why would I think that?
Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex: guys are better friends, and I value friendship over everything
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: why not ask this question before all the other?
Have you ever been dumped?: no
Have you ever dumped someone?: yes :(
I...
Am: a nerd/geek
Want: an iPhone
Need: to sleep more
Love: my friends
Hate: my food allergies
Feel: good about where I am
Did: run a lot around for this year's perfect Xmas presents
Miss: my university days, for I had much fun with my friends
Am annoyed by: an upgrade at work
Would rather: be a Canadian/Scottish/Irish/Japanese than Hungarian
Am tired of: seeing my negative bank account
Will always: try to be fun to be around
MISCELLANEOUS
What is your favourite genre of music?: acoustic, indie, new age
What time is it now?: 0:47 (oh my..)
How much money do you have right now?: less than an average salary
Are you hungry right now?: not really
What are you doing right now?: finished watching Lord of the Rings (Fellowship of the ring), chatting on IRC and keeping an eye on the Steam Holiday Sales
Do you like parades?: no, too loud
Do you like the moon?: I'm a rabbit, I love da MOON
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: sleep and dream of the Moon
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: flying or teleporting
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Funny?: yes
Cool?: my hands are always cool, like that of a frog's
Pretty?: pretty funny
Sarcastic?: sometimes
Lazy?: when it comes to exercising
Hyper?: nah
Friendly?: most of the time
Evil?: live?
Unforgettable?: I have people who forgot about me, so apparently not
Smart?: how is smartness measured?
Strong?: getting stronger
Talented?: not particularly, no
Dorky?: nah
WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: expectations
Lonely: tree
Pen: art
Flower: bloom
Window: microsoft
Psycho: logy
Brain freeze: ice cream
Strange: Fringe
Sassy: Lassie
Suffering: Japanese horror movies
Art: one person and an instrument
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?: no way
Run away?: with the Corrs
Curse at a teacher?: not when she was around
Not take a shower for a week?: :S no
Ask someone out?: yea, like "hey, let's get lunch from the chinese"
Unscrew your cellphone too see what's inside?: yup
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: no, I don't care if they don't like me for who I am anymore
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: 1 month was the top until now. It was great. would do it again
Go scuba diving?: hm.. maybe
Write a book?: yes, definitely
Assemble a computer?: did
Become a rock star?: nah, I'm not hard enough
Have a long-distance relationship?: no
Marry someone you don't know?: marriage roulette, or what?
LAST QUESTIONS ( FINALLY ) - ARRGHHHH...
What kind of computer do you have?: Macbook Air and a Lenovo
What grade/level of studies are you in? (if applicable): finished with university degree
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: I prefer stuffing them in my mouth. Not the people, the popcorn
How many posters do you have in your room?: none, but plan to put a few (like 7) up pretty soon.
Ok, so that's all folks. I did this for fun, because the last time I filled this in was aaaaages ago.
Pheebs
December 21, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} The missing blog
Hi all, long time no post :D
I owe you a post about my flat. I think I did remember that I have to post about it a few times in the past... I procrastinated so much, that I forgot about it all together.
So here it is:
In May I finally got around to reserve the flat of my dreams. It's in Zuglo, which is a part of Budapest that was always in my heart (along with Obuda). Reasons for this:
- It is where the little Japanese language school resides where my life has changed
- Asia Centre (a huge shopping mall with Asian goods in it)
- The Big Green (Zuglo is on the outskirts of Budapest, so the air is less polluted, and it has a lot of green places)
In the beginning of July I was done with the preparations (got a loan from the bank, all paperwork was done), and was ready to set the date... but a strange and happy thing happened to me. Something that I never expected.
I was sent off for 1 month to Toronto, Canada by the company I work at. Beside Ireland, Scotland and Japan, Canada is one place I always wanted to see. Learn about the daily life of a Canadian. I was not disappointed.
I spent one month there along with a few of my coworkers from Brazil. It was mainly for work, but after work hours and during the weekends I had time to look around. Eat in places I could never afford, see the Niagara Falls. As Toronto is a meeting point for a lot of foreigners - it is filled with all kinds of people -, it is very welcoming towards non-Canadians. I felt at home, even though I missed my family and friends like crazy.
But my stay there was not without sad moments. A week before I left, I lost my Aunt to cancer. It was awful to leave in a sad time like that, my father and grandmother were devastated. I don't know which feeling was stronger inside me, the feeling of loss or the worry for my father. I was really scared for him, what this awful event would do to him. But I had to leave and concentrate on work; learn as much as I could during that 1 month.
While I was away, my Aunt's death affected my life in a very unusual way as well. I won't go into details on how and why, just that I no longer have a bank loan. I now own my flat. Completely. And I owe it to her and my grandmother, to whom I will always be grateful. They gave me a fresh start.
Upon getting back from Canada, after spending 2 days recovering from jet-lag and the tiring 1 month, I moved in; along with a room-full of my belongings. I bought a couch, a wardrobe, a fridge and Internet the first week and have been adding to the line ever since.
It's December now, just before Christmas and I finally settled in. I hosted a couple of BGDs (board-game days) already, Nyekk helped me with transportation of a couple of my furniture from IKEA, and even helped me build the mudroom part of the flat.
I learned how to make Chocolate Chip Cookies, have been experimenting with muffins, learned a few basic stuff to cook. Made my first art here. Never missed a bill. Bought an in-door bike. Became an expert in building IKEA furniture by myself. I am tidy (though it doesn't show on the pics, because in order to get this far in tidiness, I needed more cabinets and dressers to put away my stuff) and never an annoying neighbour to my neighbours.
I feel at home here, and try to find my way as an adult.
I'm still playing taiko with my band, still go on on-calls for a week at a time every other month (and still can't sleep), still not in a good shape, but still trying.
To cut a long post short: I am happy.
Pheebs
I
I owe you a post about my flat. I think I did remember that I have to post about it a few times in the past... I procrastinated so much, that I forgot about it all together.
So here it is:
In May I finally got around to reserve the flat of my dreams. It's in Zuglo, which is a part of Budapest that was always in my heart (along with Obuda). Reasons for this:
- It is where the little Japanese language school resides where my life has changed
- Asia Centre (a huge shopping mall with Asian goods in it)
- The Big Green (Zuglo is on the outskirts of Budapest, so the air is less polluted, and it has a lot of green places)
In the beginning of July I was done with the preparations (got a loan from the bank, all paperwork was done), and was ready to set the date... but a strange and happy thing happened to me. Something that I never expected.
I was sent off for 1 month to Toronto, Canada by the company I work at. Beside Ireland, Scotland and Japan, Canada is one place I always wanted to see. Learn about the daily life of a Canadian. I was not disappointed.
I spent one month there along with a few of my coworkers from Brazil. It was mainly for work, but after work hours and during the weekends I had time to look around. Eat in places I could never afford, see the Niagara Falls. As Toronto is a meeting point for a lot of foreigners - it is filled with all kinds of people -, it is very welcoming towards non-Canadians. I felt at home, even though I missed my family and friends like crazy.
But my stay there was not without sad moments. A week before I left, I lost my Aunt to cancer. It was awful to leave in a sad time like that, my father and grandmother were devastated. I don't know which feeling was stronger inside me, the feeling of loss or the worry for my father. I was really scared for him, what this awful event would do to him. But I had to leave and concentrate on work; learn as much as I could during that 1 month.
While I was away, my Aunt's death affected my life in a very unusual way as well. I won't go into details on how and why, just that I no longer have a bank loan. I now own my flat. Completely. And I owe it to her and my grandmother, to whom I will always be grateful. They gave me a fresh start.
Upon getting back from Canada, after spending 2 days recovering from jet-lag and the tiring 1 month, I moved in; along with a room-full of my belongings. I bought a couch, a wardrobe, a fridge and Internet the first week and have been adding to the line ever since.
It's December now, just before Christmas and I finally settled in. I hosted a couple of BGDs (board-game days) already, Nyekk helped me with transportation of a couple of my furniture from IKEA, and even helped me build the mudroom part of the flat.
I learned how to make Chocolate Chip Cookies, have been experimenting with muffins, learned a few basic stuff to cook. Made my first art here. Never missed a bill. Bought an in-door bike. Became an expert in building IKEA furniture by myself. I am tidy (though it doesn't show on the pics, because in order to get this far in tidiness, I needed more cabinets and dressers to put away my stuff) and never an annoying neighbour to my neighbours.
I feel at home here, and try to find my way as an adult.
I'm still playing taiko with my band, still go on on-calls for a week at a time every other month (and still can't sleep), still not in a good shape, but still trying.
To cut a long post short: I am happy.
Pheebs
I
May 09, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} flat update
Woohoo, 20 days to go. Cross your fingers for me; i hope everything goes well.
April 14, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} Putting the lid on
Hi,
First of all, sorry but I'm going to use you as an emotional dustbin for a little.
I've been a bit depressed for the last couple of months, and I can't seem to crawl out of this pit on my own. So what I decided to do was to use you as my safety pit, pour the things that bother me and make me bitter in that pit and leave them behind. I feel I have to do this to get my usually cheerful self back and move on.
So here it goes:
Pit tenant No1: home
I have had high hopes to have my home ready to welcome me by the end of April. It seems I as mistaken and it is not coming so easy. There are loos rocks that want to see me fall... things I can't control. Things that cause me headache, like the fact that the letter I'm waiting for (that would tell us the date of the inheritance trial) is not coming, and it's mid April already; or that I have to worry about loosing the flat I have my eyes on. I know, I know. I'm being an ass here. Some people don't even have homes. I have one here with my family, where I'm welcomed and all. It's just that I see this 'mi casa' as a kickstarter, to finally start living my life... the way I want it. To finally grow up. So in a way, you can say I see this flat as my adulthood. And I have been waiting a lot to start it.
Pit tenant No2: family
A family home is the place you go to for comfort. For peace. Lately, I feel it's nothing like that. I had a fight with my dad, who seems to have something like a mid-life crisis. It came to the point where he said something to me that I'm not sure can ever forget. After our fight my grandmother called me to tell me she is disappointed, and that I a heartless (the fight was about the dog, who now makes me feel like I'm no longer my father's only daughter, like I have to fight for that place with the dog. Whom my dad would choose over me... yes. He said so. To protect him.). After that I decided not to talk to my grandmother again. I didn't really like her before either.. but after this, I felt I have enough things in my life to keep me stressed. I don't need her to do just that for me. Not when she works so hard to make me feel that I'll never be good enough for her.
Pit tenant No3: drum
Then there is this place that was always a safe place for me, emotionally. Which now seems to put more items on my depression collection. Lately, I feel like I'm just there for display. I am allowed to play, but just until I don't have an opinion. And if I so wish to give voice to that opinion, I pay the price. I get cold shoulder. There were occasions when I did that... gave voice to my opinion I mean. It never met ears. But then someone else did the same thing, and suddenly, it was accepted. I feel cheated. Like in 1 year my position as likeable team member change into a drag. The person who's input is not needed. Who puts effort into things but never gets no pat on the back (except for a small part of the group).
Pit tenant No4: work
I know that in long term this new position will do good for me. It already has. I am no longer nervous when I have to call my co-worker. I am ready to learn new stuff and take on challenges. Even when I feel like it's going to be too much. Now.. I know what awaits me next week. 1 week on-call. Paged at night. And even when not paged, I know I won't be able to sleep. Because that's the kind of person I am. I worry too much. Even when it's pointless. I know that. I just worry about this too much because I feel so under-qualified in this job. I never got the training everyone else did. And I feel stupid most of the time. I remember feeling the same way in my previous position. But a year ago I was doing so well. I knew my stuff. I helped people. Now the only thing I do is ask. Ask questions, all the time. I am in constant need of the help of my co-workers. And it annoys the hell out of me.
Pit tenant No5: body
I never really was content with my body. I always had issues with the size of me. With the proportions. I guess seeing myself among my drum band team mates (all slender and in good form)... I see I'm the odd one. I need other ways of loosing weight. I just always have excuses. The current one is that I'll start running once I moved to my own flat. So that I don't have to worry about whom I bother with showering late. And I mean it this time. I just don't want to start an 8 weeks long routine when it is possible that I have to stop it in the middle due to my moving out. I know. Other excuses.. again.
I used to be the one who tried to cheer others up. Now I feel hopeless. I see the bad in everything. Like the whole world is out to make me feel bad. I don't want this. I want to be my old self. Or just a bit less pessimistic. I complain a lot. And I mean a Lot! I hate that. I want to stop. So here. I put this post as a lid on my depression pit, and hope to find something good in everything to keep me smile. I will start tomorrow morning with a cup of coffee and a good smile. Then I'll watch a few sitcoms to set my mood for next week.
Thanks for being here little blog. You are a good therapist.
First of all, sorry but I'm going to use you as an emotional dustbin for a little.
I've been a bit depressed for the last couple of months, and I can't seem to crawl out of this pit on my own. So what I decided to do was to use you as my safety pit, pour the things that bother me and make me bitter in that pit and leave them behind. I feel I have to do this to get my usually cheerful self back and move on.
So here it goes:
Pit tenant No1: home
I have had high hopes to have my home ready to welcome me by the end of April. It seems I as mistaken and it is not coming so easy. There are loos rocks that want to see me fall... things I can't control. Things that cause me headache, like the fact that the letter I'm waiting for (that would tell us the date of the inheritance trial) is not coming, and it's mid April already; or that I have to worry about loosing the flat I have my eyes on. I know, I know. I'm being an ass here. Some people don't even have homes. I have one here with my family, where I'm welcomed and all. It's just that I see this 'mi casa' as a kickstarter, to finally start living my life... the way I want it. To finally grow up. So in a way, you can say I see this flat as my adulthood. And I have been waiting a lot to start it.
Pit tenant No2: family
A family home is the place you go to for comfort. For peace. Lately, I feel it's nothing like that. I had a fight with my dad, who seems to have something like a mid-life crisis. It came to the point where he said something to me that I'm not sure can ever forget. After our fight my grandmother called me to tell me she is disappointed, and that I a heartless (the fight was about the dog, who now makes me feel like I'm no longer my father's only daughter, like I have to fight for that place with the dog. Whom my dad would choose over me... yes. He said so. To protect him.). After that I decided not to talk to my grandmother again. I didn't really like her before either.. but after this, I felt I have enough things in my life to keep me stressed. I don't need her to do just that for me. Not when she works so hard to make me feel that I'll never be good enough for her.
Pit tenant No3: drum
Then there is this place that was always a safe place for me, emotionally. Which now seems to put more items on my depression collection. Lately, I feel like I'm just there for display. I am allowed to play, but just until I don't have an opinion. And if I so wish to give voice to that opinion, I pay the price. I get cold shoulder. There were occasions when I did that... gave voice to my opinion I mean. It never met ears. But then someone else did the same thing, and suddenly, it was accepted. I feel cheated. Like in 1 year my position as likeable team member change into a drag. The person who's input is not needed. Who puts effort into things but never gets no pat on the back (except for a small part of the group).
Pit tenant No4: work
I know that in long term this new position will do good for me. It already has. I am no longer nervous when I have to call my co-worker. I am ready to learn new stuff and take on challenges. Even when I feel like it's going to be too much. Now.. I know what awaits me next week. 1 week on-call. Paged at night. And even when not paged, I know I won't be able to sleep. Because that's the kind of person I am. I worry too much. Even when it's pointless. I know that. I just worry about this too much because I feel so under-qualified in this job. I never got the training everyone else did. And I feel stupid most of the time. I remember feeling the same way in my previous position. But a year ago I was doing so well. I knew my stuff. I helped people. Now the only thing I do is ask. Ask questions, all the time. I am in constant need of the help of my co-workers. And it annoys the hell out of me.
Pit tenant No5: body
I never really was content with my body. I always had issues with the size of me. With the proportions. I guess seeing myself among my drum band team mates (all slender and in good form)... I see I'm the odd one. I need other ways of loosing weight. I just always have excuses. The current one is that I'll start running once I moved to my own flat. So that I don't have to worry about whom I bother with showering late. And I mean it this time. I just don't want to start an 8 weeks long routine when it is possible that I have to stop it in the middle due to my moving out. I know. Other excuses.. again.
I used to be the one who tried to cheer others up. Now I feel hopeless. I see the bad in everything. Like the whole world is out to make me feel bad. I don't want this. I want to be my old self. Or just a bit less pessimistic. I complain a lot. And I mean a Lot! I hate that. I want to stop. So here. I put this post as a lid on my depression pit, and hope to find something good in everything to keep me smile. I will start tomorrow morning with a cup of coffee and a good smile. Then I'll watch a few sitcoms to set my mood for next week.
Thanks for being here little blog. You are a good therapist.
March 19, 2013
March 17, 2013
{{ Pheebs }} the flat of my dreams
Hi ya'll,
So yup, we once again promised to write more frequently and failed to do it, just like always :)))
Nevermind, this blog is like a diary anyway. We write when we have something to say.
Since my last post the taiko group split into two fractions. Taiko Hungary went on their separate ways and the rest of us formed Nikkou (or Nikko). We can be found under dobolda.hu
We will probably have a flashmob on the 21st of April. I hope we do, because that would be quite interesting.
And now on to more post subject related matters. The flat.
I have found my dream flat in Hermina Bau's Happy Land II. It is on the 3rd floor. I would rather not post anything specific here about it. Sorry for being paranoid...
Now all I need is the kickstart to be able to get a loan from the bank and I am good to go. It will be the perfect geek home, with lots of nerdy and pheeby things in it. The perfect getaway for bgds with freshly bought marlenka and home prepared irish cream / rooibos vanilla tea.
It is conveniently close to Azsia Center, Polus Center, Arkad, Ikea, Chipuro (where we used to study Japanese), Bosnyak Market. It is alos quite close to work and the 173 bus which has a night bus too, so hopefully I won't evet have to worry about how to get home.
On the con side: being new, it's quite expensive. It has its own Hermina Telekom internet/telephone/tv, which sounds depressing. And i carelessly forgot the other cons :D
Yesterday I received a link to a japanese radio, which plays relax music at night in the idle time. It gives such a cute atmosphere that I can imagine myswlf playing that in the background, with my fat, furry cat on my lap, drinking coffee and reading a good book. Aww, dat peace.
So, hm.. I hole the next time I post here, I can say I have already occupied that flat. Wih me luck!
Pheebs
So yup, we once again promised to write more frequently and failed to do it, just like always :)))
Nevermind, this blog is like a diary anyway. We write when we have something to say.
Since my last post the taiko group split into two fractions. Taiko Hungary went on their separate ways and the rest of us formed Nikkou (or Nikko). We can be found under dobolda.hu
We will probably have a flashmob on the 21st of April. I hope we do, because that would be quite interesting.
And now on to more post subject related matters. The flat.
I have found my dream flat in Hermina Bau's Happy Land II. It is on the 3rd floor. I would rather not post anything specific here about it. Sorry for being paranoid...
Now all I need is the kickstart to be able to get a loan from the bank and I am good to go. It will be the perfect geek home, with lots of nerdy and pheeby things in it. The perfect getaway for bgds with freshly bought marlenka and home prepared irish cream / rooibos vanilla tea.
It is conveniently close to Azsia Center, Polus Center, Arkad, Ikea, Chipuro (where we used to study Japanese), Bosnyak Market. It is alos quite close to work and the 173 bus which has a night bus too, so hopefully I won't evet have to worry about how to get home.
On the con side: being new, it's quite expensive. It has its own Hermina Telekom internet/telephone/tv, which sounds depressing. And i carelessly forgot the other cons :D
Yesterday I received a link to a japanese radio, which plays relax music at night in the idle time. It gives such a cute atmosphere that I can imagine myswlf playing that in the background, with my fat, furry cat on my lap, drinking coffee and reading a good book. Aww, dat peace.
So, hm.. I hole the next time I post here, I can say I have already occupied that flat. Wih me luck!
Pheebs
January 04, 2013
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