{{ Pheebs }} New Year's Resolutions for 2013

Hmmm..

Let me start by saying that when I was about 13-14 years old, I read a book. It was the Flower of Life by Drunvalo Melchizedek... His take on the '2012 is the end of the world' is a bit different than you'd expect. Here is what he says:

- Although Dec 21, 2012 is the date of the end of the age in the Mayan calendar it does not mean anything spectacular is going to happen on that exact date.

- The Mayan elders say the calendar foretells Earth changes and changes in consciousness AND that they occur within a seven-year period of time around 2012.

Imagine the 13 year old me.. of course I believed him. So for a while, I didn't really think what would happen to me after 2012. Of course as I grew up, I realized I don't believe in this anymore and put it aside.. but when I wrote the title of this post, I realized I'm not sure what I'll be doing in 5 years from now, or even next year.

So here is a small list of the same kind of resolutions I usually put on this blog... with only one big life changing bullet point:

- move out, move out, move out. I feel that I need to get this over with in order to grow up, to start my adult life, to feel what it's like to take care of yourself, to feel the weight of money, to learn to cook etc etc. I need to fulfill this so much, that it bugs me when I sleep, when I'm awake.
The small ray of light that surfaced a few weeks ago might help me do it maybe in the 3Q2013... if it does not, I don't know how I'll cope with that. It's not that I don't like living at home... who wouldn't. It's just.. it's like I'm a pokemon that wants to evolve, but doesn't have enough space to do it.

- driver's licence. I'm halfway through guys, I'm nearly there. If only I wasn't so afraid that I destroy all humanity with the car I'm driving..
Getting this licence was never about actually driving for me. I kept having these nightmares when I sit in a car and want to escape or go somewhere, but I either can't start it, or start it but go backwards. And I was almost never able to steer right. I guess it's a metaphor for my life at this time. Although, the stupid little brainless me thought that maybe if I learn how to drive it wouldn't happen again (never realized it meant that I'm not able to go forward with my life...), it never occured to me that bringing my nightmare to real life isn't such a good idea. So yep.. every time I'm out in the practice field (not in traffic at this point, thank god!), it's a living nightmare. Thanks past Me...

- continue forming, helping the taiko band I play in. Our name became Nikko, as in sunlight in Japanese ( 日光 nikkou, we haven't decided on the writing yet.. but it might get a ' below the o to mark the u). Nikko's members are basically the players who started around February/March 2012 at Taiko Hungary. That formation split up in November and started anew.

- doing a taiko flashmob. We plan to do a flashmob (they have dance flashmobs, look it up in youtube. It means that the participants gather at one point of the city to perform something, but they appear one by one, giving the whole experience a kind of impromptu feeling, although I think it's well organized) with Nikko. The date is not planned yet, all we know is that we need good weather to do it :)

- get a caisa / hang drum. It's so awesome I can't put it into words. And expensive unfortunately. So I think I'll fail this :D nevermind

- get a PC, play Elder Scrolls Online!!

- persuade Nyekk and Padi to do the same :D hey, I need nakamas to succeed in this cruel world filled with monsters :DD

- get on the Japanese Learning train again. We neglected this hobby of ours in these last 1-2 years. I want to get back to it again.

- survive at work.

That's all folks, I hope I didn't bore you. borju lol...hm, speaking of borju, I'm hungry, I could eat a gyros :D

Pheebs, who is hungry

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Oh, oh!! and I want to find my way back to irc. I love irc!